LOVE LETTER

Dear Bayen,

          Of course I remember you. You are not the only one who shocked when we met at the reunion of our batch last two weeks in UTP because I would never expected that we would have met during that night. It seems that our fate is intertwined again and the hardest part is indeed starting again. I did noticed you during that time and it’s look like you have change a lot compare to when we still together side by side embraced by each other love.

          We were both young when we met, always believes that everything will goes as we had planned is it? Well it doesn’t actually, the reality is cruel indeed. All the memories and the happiness when we are together before this for me now, is nothing but a chain of lies. There is no such thing as happy ending you once said to me that the reasons we end our relationship is we cannot achieved understanding but that is only an excuse which is ugly but the truth is even uglier. For me, our past was quiet good but every good part must come to an end. Thus, that is the reason why we broke off.

         I am sorry for your loss, and now you are planning to make me as your wife? For the other woman in this world maybe this one of the happiest thing they ever heard. Unluckily this is not a good news for me so, my answer is a big NO got that? There is no something wrong with you actually, as you mentioned to me that you can support my life and I can take care of your children welfare. I am aware that your children is still young isn’t it? Well, let them grow without a mother’s love so they will learn what is live really is. Like I said before, the reality is cruel.

        I want to stress that there is nothing wrong with you maybe the problem is me actually. My heart little by little succumbed into a perpetual darkness after we broke off. I have seen something terrible and had experience something that indescribable,  soon after that I said to ‘myself what a wonderful world' sarcastically. This doesn’t mean that I have gone mad but it more like I have a condition. Now in this state I am more comfortable to be alone as people used to said that ‘sometimes it better to be alone so no one can hurt you’.

Dear Bayen,

         There is no salvation for me and there is nothing that can be done. So my answer is final which I am truly sorry for that, you better know what kind of place this world really is. A place which full of despair and there is no one there to catch you in their arms. I recommend you to propose Nicky Minaj I heard that she is still single and available, I am sure she will be a good wife and a mother as well. Just don’t  wasting your time waiting for someone like me for a person like me is better to be alone for the rest of her life. I guess this is the purpose of living for those who have no life.

Love Maimun xoxo.