Dear you,
It’s
such a pleasant day just before I checked my email. Likewise, it full with emails
from dealers, the management, also from my students. Yes, I’m a lecture now. I
knew you always knew that it is my dream to be someone that give back to the
community. How have you been for all this time? It’s a shocking expression I
got there on my face when I saw your email in my inbox. I smile on myself after that. Yes, I am fine.
My life is wonderful and I do remember you, dear. How can I forget when you’re
the one who made my life worthy once and then you left me trembling alone?
Never
mind, it’s all over now. It’s have been over 3 decades. I forgave you and
literally I forgot you already. Yes, I am not kidding and not joking around
with you. Frankly speaking, it has been a very rough time for me, a year after
you left me. All the things around me, around the campus, make me thinking of
you. With all the path that we’ve been walk together, the chairs we sat before,
side by side, at the lake, watching the sunset and yes, together we sang ‘Untuk
Dia’ by Najwa Latif. That song was top on chart during those times. Sometimes,
I wonder, during these three decades, did you ever search on youtube for that
song and rewind all of our memories together? Hm why? because I did.
Dear you,
I
haven’t have a chance to make it all clear. For all these years, you thought
that I being too close with that guy, and with that reason, one simple reason,
you cheated on me. Not with one but two girls. Nice one, dear. Yes, you’re more
handsome physically rather that the guy whom you think I date before, but your
attitude is more hideous than him. You’re suck. You’re craziest person that I
came crossed in my life. You’re smart guy, with all those formulas, your
theorem, in your head, no wonder you get
into the metal hospital for me years. Told you before, balance your life, not
only remembering the formula, but love, life, also. Please, mind your level of jealousy.
After
all, that guy you saw 30years before, was my long-lost brother. Yes, he is your
friend, but that night we just realize we’re separated siblings. I want to tell
you, but you doesn’t want to listen. You, with your attitude..
I’m so
sorry, I just can’t accept you any longer. I don’t want to get hurt anymore,
with the same person or even with anyone else. That’s why I decide to stay
single. Happy with my own. No need to confront with you, your formulas, your
equations. Now, I am not your hydrogen whom can cool down a burning metal, nor
your white flame that can ever melt your heart. I sorry, now I am locating
myself comfortably at group 8 of periodic table, if you know what I mean. May you
find your catalyst of life and react rapidly. Take care.
Yours not-so-genius ex,
Me.
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